Long title I know. I have my reasons I suppose, but this post is a slight departure from my normal style of HNT. I have my reasons. Even though I used this image as one of my "click throughs" last year, I felt it was deserving of its own post (that plus I didn't get time to take the photo I has planned to this week).
Part of what I really like about this image, is the mood. We can all be moody no? But perhaps I should quantify that be saying I'm not entirely a moody person, just capable of having different thoughts processes at any one time that will manifest in how I am perceived to be behaving.
At this point in time, I would say I have been reflective of late. Not literally in that I keep staring at my reflection in the mirror, I'm not that narcissistic after all, but there have been many events in recent times that give cause to think back about what is important to me. Things such as the loved ones that surround me. Jas in particular and our son together, he is growing fast (and will feature in a future HNT again) developing his own personality and bringing great joy to our lives. Even if he doesn't always want to sleep. I recently went to visit my other children, and apart from the whole "Two Lives" thing again, it was fantastic to spend some quality time with them. It's all about perspective you see. At the moment the glass is definitely half full.
Jas and I have always been good communicators with each other, but in the last month or so, with lack of sleep, tiredness and such creeping in, we have been a little distracted from one another. We have since remedied that this week, even the other night just lying in bed chatting until midnight! No sex, just talking. It was fantastic, reconnecting like that.
I think part of what makes Jas and I such great communicators is that we accept each other for who we are. There is no pretense, no expectation to be something you're not, just love and appreciation for who each other is. I will admit that it took me a little time to be able to fully reveal the extent of who I was to Jas when we started dating. That was partly because of the emotional walls I had put up, but also because I had forgotten who I was to a degree, after 10 years in a destructive relationship.
So as I revealed myself to Jas (and even me to a degree), rediscovery is a powerful emotion to contend with. Realisation that I can be me and pretty much say "fuck you!" to anyone who finds "me" offensive has given me the tools to grow as a person, the confidence to deal with pretty much any situation, and wherewithal to take the world in my stride, and make of it what I want.
So a slight change in direction for the next couple of HNT's as I continue to reveal myself in a slightly different light (after all, I have already revealed pretty much every part of my body haha!). You make like it, you may not, but at the end of the day it will be me. This is about what makes me who I am, from a friend, a Father, a lover, a partner, a colleague or even just a stranger walking past in the street.
There is more revealed here than you may think (*winks*)